First Day of Exams --- check!

I survived the first day of exams. I don't like the tests today and I will certainly not like the tests tom. Elective and Math. My most hatest (you can see how I really hate it) subjects this year. I was actually saying to myself "I will study later!! I will really study hard!" but what I did was sleep and post pictures and videos of me and my busmate in multiply and then eat then sleep again. Yup! I didn't study at all. There's always tomorrow morning. I don't care if I get a high grade or not. I will be happy with just the thought that I will pass and go to college.. that is if I have a college to go to. I certainly want to go to Ateneo but I don't want to have high expectations for myself for I'll only be hurt the moment I couldn't do it. This year, I will not stress about being an awardee or whatever.. I will just enjoy my last year here in St. Paul and my last year as a highschool student. I will not allow myself to be stressed about things.

I like typing here.. I can say the things I normally wouldn't say. If you know me personally I think you're like wondering who I am.. This is not like me. Or maybe I am.. Well I don't know how people think of me... I don't care.. be it positive or negative. Maybe many people hate me.. I think that's great.. I'll just curse whoever that is inside my head just like what I am doing to a certain person now. I really don't think it's that person's fault.. Oh wait.. It is.. hehe.. If you're ever with that person.. you must grip onto something because the wind is just too strong.. do you get what I'm saying? Hehe.. That insensitive thing.. I feel so bad... I have to ask for forgiveness later... I really think what I am doing is wrong... Maybe it's not really that person's fault.. maybe I am just insecure or just plain angry.. maybe I am currently in a bad mood because of exams.. but still I hate that person.. Maybe I should write a poem about my anger or show it through an artwork made in photoshop.. or maybe I'll do both.. If I decided to do something, I'll post it here..

Apparently without me knowing it, this post is already long... Do people really read this stuff?? It's not like many people know about this blog. Oh well.. I am currently thinking about Ryoma Echizen.. (I can hear people saying "Don't you always think about him?!?!?!") Well that's true.. hehe.. He's cute... if he's not cute for you its okay.. I will not attack someone because we differ in opinion.. I think I'll do an artwork based on him.. Creativity is not my strongest quality.. I couldn't even draw to save my life.. But strangely there is an exemption to that rule.. that is when I am working with computers.. Yes.. strangely enough.. that's the only time my creativity, if there is, is at its fullest. Well never mind.. For me mada mada desu.. I still have lots more to work on.. Of course that will not end.. no matter how good you are.. there's always somebody better than you.. Maybe that will be my motto in life.. I stil have lots more to work on.. At least I will be reminded to train harder and it will prevent me from being an airhead. Ya.. I think that's great.. and it still has to do with Ryoma.. hehe..

I was watching Air Crash Investigation awhile ago and I was like thinking.. "What if that happens to me (not that I want to) what will be my reaction to the situation? Will I survive? And if I survive will I ever board a plane again?" I think that I am getting weirder by the minute.. Next topic...

I am waiting for the last episode of Tantei Gakuen Q Live to be subbed in english.. I was actually cursing myself for not learning Chinese when I am part-Chinese for the already available sub is in Chinese.. And I am also cursing myself for not knowing Japanese that well. I am so excited...

My brother is so cute.. He was asking if he can have the last piece of Choco Crunchies and when I agreed he kissed me on my left cheek while saying thank you.. and now he placed an earphone on my left ear and he's playing Ryoma's song on my Ipod.. hehe.. at least he approves of Ryoma... whatever gwenie.. hehehe

I am thinking of documenting my Prince of Tennis stuffs.. you know like recording it into video.. Well when I first thought of doing that I am bored.. I may as well do that during the semstral break... Now that I think about it... Where is the typhoon that's supposed to be coming today?? I want classes to be postponed tomorrow... I think that this entry is so long already.. so time to say goodbye.. Ganbatte Minna!!! Mata ne!